夜空の星

Random~

2011-03-29T21:14:00.003+08:00

No Rain, No Rainbow

nagareru namida ga shizuka ni
nani ka no owari wo shiraseru
miageta kumoma ni aozora
kitto yamanai ame nante nai

NO RAIN NO RAINBOW
zubunure no me no mae wo sotto nuguu yo
ki ga tsuitara ame mo yande
seijaku ga boku wo tsutsunde
nani ka wo katari kakeru you ni
arawaretanda niji no AACHI
ame agari ASUFARUTO toori de yasuragu
suri kireta kodomo ga fu to odori dasu
mizu tamari de dansu ano niji no shita
bishonure no SUNIIKAA no mama fumi dasu

NO RAIN NO RAINBOW
kanashimi mo itsuka wa hareruya
hmm. ah. icchuuya naki akashite mieta no wa
nana iro ni kokoro wo someru hikari

nagareru namida ga shizuka ni
nani ka no owari wo shiraseru
miageta kumoma ni aozora
kitto yamanai ame nante nai
kizu tsuita mune no oku ni
kirayaka na niji ga kakaru
subete wa sou koko kara hajimaru
itsuka wa hareru NO RAIN NO RAINBOW

itsuka wa ima no nayami sae mo
natsukashiku kanjiru hi ga kuru yo
sore made wa naitatte ii
boku no nagai jinsei no tsuukaten
toki ni ashi wo tometatte ii
namida de arai nagasu made

moshikashite mou dame nano kamo
sou omotta yo nankai mo
subete wo nage dashi nani mo kamo
akirameyou to omotta kedo
dekinai jibun wo dareka no sei ni
iiwake ni shite ikiteku yori
dekinai nara jibun nari ni
bukiyou demo butsukatteku beki

NO RAIN NO RAINBOW
kanashimi mo itsuka wa hareruya
uwa no sora oboroge na boku ni mieta no wa
nana iro ni asu wo terasu hikari

nagareru namida ga shizuka ni
nani ka no owari wo shiraseru
miageta kumoma ni aozora
kitto yamanai ame nante nai
kizu tsuita mune no oku ni
kirayaka na niji ga kakaru
subete wa sou koko kara hajimaru
itsuka wa hareru NO RAIN NO RAINBOW

dareka mo itami wo kakaeterunda
kitto ima tamesarete runda
nemurenu yoru mo funbatte gutto koraero
kurushii joukyou demo taero
sono hibi ga kimi wo tsuyoku saseru kara

suu to kumo no sukima kara sasu
hikari ga subete wo tsutsumu

nagareru namida ga shizuka ni
nani ka no owari wo shiraseru
miageta kumoma ni aozora
kitto yamanai ame nante nai
kizu tsuita mune no oku ni
kirayaka na niji ga kakaru
subete wa sou koko kara hajimaru
itsuka wa hareru NO RAIN NO RAINBOW

MONOCHROME no sekai ni boku wo sukuu you ni
monooto wo sezu ni nana iro wo ichi nuri

MONOCHROME no sekai ni boku wo sukuu you ni
monooto wo sezu ni nana iro wo ichi nuri

MONOCHROME no sekai ni boku wo sukuu you ni
monooto wo sezu ni nana iro wo ichi nuri

MONOCHROME no sekai ni boku wo sukuu you ni
monooto wo sezu ni nana iro wo ichi nuri

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

The flowing tears quietly tell me
About the end of something
In the blue sky that I looked up to from between the clouds
Certainly there's no such thing as rain that won't stop

No rain no rainbow, I gently
Wipe the dripping water away from my eyes
Before I know it, the rain's stopped
Silence envelops me
The rainbow arch has appeared
So that I'll say something

The smell of the asphalt after the rain puts me at ease
My worn out heart suddenly begins to dance
I dance in a puddle, below that rainbow
I take a step forward with my sneakers that are soaked through

No rain no rainbow
The sadness will clear up one day
Uh. Ah. The thing that I saw to make me weep all day long
Was the light that dyes my heart in rainbow colors

The flowing tears quietly tell me
About the end of something
In the blue sky that I looked up to from between the clouds
Certainly there's no such thing as rain that won't stop
Inside my wounded heart
A bright rainbow is out
Yes, everything will start from here
It will clear up one day, no rain no rainbow

The day will come when I feel nostalgic
Even about the worries that I have right now
Until then, it's alright to cry
This is the passing point of a long life
It's alright to stop moving sometimes
Until it's washed away by the tears

It might all just be for nothing
I've thought that so many times
I've sacrificed everything
And I've thought about giving up
But instead of living my life making to someone else
As to why I can't do it
If I can't do it, then even though it may be awkward
I should go up against it in my own way

No rain no rainbow
The sadness will clear up one day
The thing that I saw so vaguely in the sky above
Was the light that shines on tomorrow in rainbow colors

The flowing tears quietly tell me
About the end of something
In the blue sky that I looked up to from between the clouds
Certainly there's no such thing as rain that won't stop
Inside my wounded heart
A bright rainbow is out
Yes, everything will start from here
It will clear up one day, no rain no rainbow

Everyone is carrying pain around with them
Certainly right now, we're being tested
Even on those sleepless nights, stand firm and endure
Endure even in painful situations
Because those days will make you stronger

It pierces through a crack in the clouds so brightly
The light envelops everything

The flowing tears quietly tell me
About the end of something
In the blue sky that I looked up to from between the clouds
Certainly there's no such thing as rain that won't stop
Inside my wounded heart
A bright rainbow is out
Yes, everything will start from here
It will clear up one day, no rain no rainbow

In order to rescue myself from this monochrome world
I'm going to dab in some rainbow colors without making a sound

busy working day... haiz... hope 3rd may faster come =P

late post for a HIGH HIGH DAY!

2011-03-10T09:56:00.003+08:00

Went to FLOW's concert last weekend on 5/3/11. Had alot of funnnnnn too bad can't take picture of them T-T but still! i got a special gifts from Takeshi Asakawa the guitarist xP will post the poster n the guitar pick xD

The Autographs! Super love it! didn't regret going XD was still thought will be a presigned poster but is not! is on the spot sign! wahahaha now think back still will high xD

AND! HERE'S THE PICK TAKESHI ASAKAWA HELPED MI TO SIGN! JUST TRYING MY LUCK THOUGH but it WORKS THE STAFF NEVER STOP MI!! WAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! =x ok need cool down abit too high =x

hehe think will start to post some of thier song soon when I've got the time ^^v

songs again~ =)

2010-09-26T22:15:00.002+08:00

haiz after 10 days off work 4 days only everywhere pain @_@ nvm that some songs again~ XD

Koigokoro~ love love this song~

Tooku made tsuzuiteru
Kumo no nagare o nagamete wa
Kimi no mae de nakenakute
Kuchibue o fuiteru

Itsu made mo soba ni ite to
Hitokoto ga ienakute

Afureteku koigokoro yo
Setsunai omoi wa
Kizukarenu you ni
Chuu ni kieyou to shite
Soshite mata
Hotto suru you na
Seiippai no egao de
Kimi o miokuru yo
Sayonara ARIGATOU

Sorezore no kore kara wa
Donna fuu ni natte yuku no kana
Sonna koto o kangaete
Yuugure o matteru

Itsuka mata kitto aeru to
Shinjite mitai keredo

Furueteru koigokoro yo
Kanashiki wakare wa
Hajimari no hi kara
Touni chikazuite ita
Kimi to koko ni ireru koto ga
Wakariau koto ga
Ureshikute
Kowakatta yo

Dare ni mo hanasenai
Konna himitsu o
Kokoro no oku ni kakushita mama
Sodatete ikitakute

Koigokoro yo kanawanu omoi yo
Umarete hajimete
Kou mo hito o suki ni nari
Kimi ga mada zutto iru you na
Maboroshi o ima mo
Mune ni kanjite iru yo

Koigokoro yo
Akaku naru sora yo
Yagate kumo wa kire
Yuuyami ni tsutsumare
Asu wa mata
Yatte kuru kedo
Kimi ga inai machi wa
Sukoshi hirosugiru yo
Mou ichido AITAI

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

Gazing at the passing of the clouds
That continues on far into the distance
I whistle
Not able to cry in front of you

I can't say the words
"Stay with me forever"

Oh, my overflowing love
I try to make my sad feelings
Disappear into the sky
So that they'll go unnoticed
And I
See you off
With my best smile
That seems to make you feel relieved
Goodbye, and thank you

I wonder
What our respective futures will be like?
I think about those sorts of things
As I'm waiting for the twilight

I want to believe
That we'll meet again one day, but ...

Oh, my trembling love
A sad goodbye was
Already close at hand
From the day that we met
Me being able to be here with you
And us understanding each other
Has made me happy
And scared me

I can't tell
This kind of a secret to anyone
It's shut away in my heart
I want to foster it

Oh, my love, oh, unbearable feelings
This is my first time
Loving a person this much, since I was born
Even now
I feel the illusion in my heart
That you will always be here

Oh, my love
Oh, red sky
At last the clouds part
And are enveloped by the twilight
Tomorrow
Will come again, but
A city without you
Is one that's a little vast for me
"I want to see you again"

Answer~ by FLOW one of my fav jap band =D

Shisen hazusezu freezing are? Makafushigi
Subete mosukasu youna
Kireigoto wa bleeding shinjite believe me
Shinjitsu wa doko?

Shikakerareta wana hai no WANDA-RANDO
Nukedasu sube mo shirazu ni
Sou aishiterukara aishiterunara
Kokoro misete

Kowaresouna hodo sutemi de ai wo dakishimeruyo
Tatoe sore ga yumemaboroshi demo kamawanai!
Owarenai kono mama jya nee saigo wa kimi no
Furueru honne wo ore ni sarashitekure!

Kanjou ga reflection tayorinai emotion
Yuuutsu to etsu no rasen
Yokubou no foundation warau imitation
Honmono wa dore?

Samayou no mo saga ai no MANDARA
naraba mamirete ikeba ii
Yogoshiaetanara kokoro no mama
Tokeaukara

Kowaresouna hodo sutemi de ai wo dakishimeruyo
Tatoe sore ga yumemaboroshi demo kamawanai!
Owarenai kono mama jya nee saigo wa kimi no
Furueru honne wo ore ni sarashitekure!

Shinjitsu wo shinjite wa kizutsuite mata hikari motome

focus on a naked blaze

Kowaresouna hodo sutemi de ai wo dakishimeruyo
Tatoe sore ga yumemaboroshi demo kamawanai!
Owarenai kono mama jya nee saigo wa kimi no
Furueru honne wo ore ni sarashitekure!

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

When you look away from me, it feels as if I'm freezing; Oh my? It's such a profound mystery
As if you're seeing right through everything
Glossing over stuff makes me bleed; oh please believe me
Where is the truth?

The traps that you laid in an ashen wonderland
Without even knowing how to get out of them
Yes, it's because I love you; If you love me
Then show me your heart

I'll embrace this love that feels as if it could break at the risk of my life
It doesn't matter even if it's just a dream or an illusion
If we could stay like this forever, hey, in the end
You'll expose your true intentions to me!

Sentiments are reflections of unreliable emotions
A spiral of depression and joy
With desire as the foundation, and an imitation of a smile
Which is the real thing?

Being lost is also part of love's mandala
So if that's the case then I don't mind getting smeared
Because if being filthy suits me, then maybe
I'll be able to match your heart too

I'll embrace this love that feels as if it could break at the risk of my life
It doesn't matter even if it's just a dream or an illusion
If we could stay like this forever, hey, in the end
You'll expose your true intentions to me!

Believing in reality means getting hurt, that's why we'll look for the light again

focus on a naked blaze

I'll embrace this love that feels as if it could break at the risk of my life
It doesn't matter even if it's just a dream or an illusion
If we could stay like this forever, hey, in the end
You'll expose your true intentions to me!

lalalalala~ i'm too bored =3

boorrriiingggggg ~.~

2010-09-24T20:52:00.002+08:00

veri bored arrrr z_z when i work, i feel like wanting an off... but when i off, i feel like working zzz wth -.- nvm continue to post songs tat i like xP

Letter Bee Ending~

asa o shiranai kodoku na tsuki
miageta mama me o tojitara
anata no egao ga mirai he no tobari ga
jikuu o koe kono te no naka ni

aimai ni miekakureru sora o matagu kumo no you na hibi
hitomi no oku de monokuro no kioku ga yomigaeri
afure sou na namida korae isogu

kako to ima to mirai no hazamade
nani ka seikai ka te saguri na mama uneru tabi

hatenaki michi de deatta kono kiseki wa
Life, this is my life ima anata no moto he
koe ni naranai omoi wa yozora no hoshi he to
Sky, into the sky ikite yuku in my soul

inochi no kodou tashikameru you ni
tasogare no kaze ryoute de aoi da
sunadokei no you ni tsumoru zankoku na riaru
ametsuyu ni nureta mushoku no kibou mune ni idaki

yami ni dakare ikusen no nami o koe
ashita ni wa kitto shiawase no kane ga narimasu you ni

hatenaki michi ni kagayaku hito shizuka no yuuki
Light, into the light kokoro tsuyoku todoke

konna fuu ni hito wa toshi o kasa ne
daiji na nani ka o ushinau hi ga kuru no darou ka

hatenaki michi de deatta kono kiseki wa
Life, this is my life ima anata no moto he
koe ni naranai omoi wa yozora no hoshi he to
Sky, into the sky mamotte yuku in my soul

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

The lonely moon that doesn't know morning
If I closed my eyes while like looking up
Your smile, the door towards the future,
Crosses over the time and space within this hand

Days are like clouds that straddle the sky, vaguely disappearing and reappearing
Deep inside these eyes, the monochromatic memory is revived
And I quickly hold back my tears that almost overflow

In the threshold between past, present, and future
What's right or not, on this fumblingly winding journey

This miracle is that we met on an endless road
Life, this is my life. Now I'm off to where you are
These unspoken feelings are off to the stars in the night
Sky, into the sky. I live in my soul

As to confirm the beat of life,
I turned both of my hands towards the wind of twilight
Cruel realities pile up like sand in an hourglass
Rain moistened a colorless hope, I hold in my chest

Embraced by darkness, over thousands of waves
I hope tomorrow the bells of happiness will sound for sure

A single droplet of courage shines on this endless road
Light, into the light - I reach with reassurance

And just like this, people age
Won't the day when they lose something important eventually come?

This miracle is that we met on an endless road
Life, this is my life. Now I'm off to where you are
These unspoken feelings are off to the stars in the night
Sky, into the sky. I protect you in my soul

Kuroshitsuji S2 Ending~ I love his voice =x

hana mo kimo bokura mo kanashii
sora ni mukatte nobiru shika nai
utsumu kutabi ni bokura wa kizuku
soshite mata miageru

nemuru anata wa kanashi sou de
warui yume demo miteru youda
boku wa koko dayo tonari ni iruyo
dokoemo mou ikanai
How do I live without you?

Hito wa mina sora wo miru
miagete wa me wo fuseru
itsuka mita aozora wo sagasezu ni nageku kedo
jiyuu sa to wagamama wo surikaete ikite kita
hoshi mo nai yoru no sora
yukuatemo mienai me de samayou

nani mo kowai mono nado nakatta
sore wa mamoru monoga nai dake
ashita no koto mo jyuunen saki mo ima no boku wa kowai yo
I live happy my sweetheart

hito wa mina sora ni naku
te wo hiroge yume wo miru
itsuka mita aozora wo
itsumade mo mamoru kedo

jiyuu ni habataki tobi mawaru kage ni
boku wa mou akogare tari shinai
dare mo jiyuu ja nai jiyuu tte sou ja nai
sora niwa michi ga nai dake

anata to iu sora no naka
boku dake wo tojikomete
mou dokoemo ikanai yo
mou dokonimo ikanai de

hito wa mina sora no naka
jiyuu to iu kago no naka
anata dake ireba ii
kono sora ni mou tsubasa wa
iranai

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

You look so sad as you sleep
As if you are having a bad dream
But I am here. Right beside you.
And I won’t go anywhere.
HOW DO I LIVE WITHOUT YOU?

Everyone looks up at the sky
But then glances back down
Without searching for the blue sky
That you saw one day, you grieve

You have lived mistaking selfishness
For freedom
In the starless night sky
With eyes that can't even see my course...I wander

I have had nothing to be afraid of
Because I had nothing to protect
The me now is scared
About tomorrow, about 10 years ahead, too
I need huggin' my sweet heart

All people cry to the sky
They spread their hands and dream
You'll forever protect the blue sky
That you saw one day

I won't aspire any longer
In the shadow of flapping and flying around freely
Everyone isn’t free
Freedom isn’t anything like that
It’s just that the sky doesn’t have a road

In the sky called “you”
Is where I am trapped
I am not going anywhere
So please don’t go anywhere either

Everyone is in the sky
In the cage called “freedom”
It is enough if you are here
For in this sky
I do not need wings anymore

lol too bored =x so juz post some songs XD

10days off~

2010-09-22T21:22:00.011+08:00

whee~ today is my last day of my 10days off... tml start work le... haiz... T.T happy times always pass fast =x

some random song that i like XD

Hontou ni kudaranaiyou na mainichi, kurikaesu dakeno sonna hibi
Betsu ni yaritai koto nai wake janainda mou sukoshi matte kure
Asennai de kimi no peesu de iikara hibi wo tsumikasanete
Itsuka wa dareka wo kono mune de mamotte yareru hi ga kuru made

Tatoeba chichi ya haha no youni kotoba de naku koudou de shimeseru ningen wa honto tsuyokute
Itsuka kanau kana..?

# Kimi ga hashiridashita sono me no mae ni tachifusagaru mono wa arimasuka?
Hitori ja doushiyou mo nai kabe mo daijoubu! Tsuyoi jibun no "FIGHT" shinjitemite!
Angai moroi! Sekai wa hiroi! Kizuiterunjanai? #

Tatoeba mawari no hitobito subete ga dekita yatsu nawakenai
Ironna yatsu ga iru nakare de ironna koto manaberu kara

Ase kaite shikuhakku shite machigae darake no yonaka de
Sukoshi dake gutto kotaete
Ato wa shita dashite waratte yare!

Bokura wa hitori janai kara
Kimi no koto wakaru hito wa achira kochira ni iru kara daijoubu!
Sa, ippo mae he ikou!

(repeat)

Kimi ga hashiridashita sono me no mae ni tachifusagaru mono wa arimasuka?
Hitori ja doushiyou mo nai kabe mo daijoubu! Tsuyoi jibun no "Fight" shinjitemite!
Angai moroi! Sekai wa hiroi! Kizuiterunjanai?
Gamushara "STYLE" misero "PRIDE" dekinainjanai!!
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i love this song =3
Natsume Yuujinchou S1 1st OP i like the meaning of this song.

mata sonna kao shite
kuchibirukami shimete
yowasa o kakushiteru kedo
sono hitomi no oku
uzukumaru kimi ga
hontou no kokoro nara

omotte naite hitori de fuan de nande itai no mottenda
boku ni sotto azukete yo

sugu ja muri to omou no naraba
sukoshizutsu de ii
tubasa no nai bokura kitto
tobenai to kime tsuketeru dake
koe no kagiri kimi o yobu yo
maiyowanai you ni
FUWARI kokoro maiagare
ano kaze ni nosete
issei no se

todokanai nante
kimetsukeru koto de
kizutsuku koto kara nigetemo
sono nigirishimeta
tenohira no naka de
yuragu omoi kakusenai

nageite naide hitori de inaide sonde itai no tonde ike
ima yori chotto asu e ikou yo

hitori ja muri na koto mo tagusa
kaerareru ka na
tubasa no nai kawari bokura
doko made mo omoi tobaseru yo
koe no kagiri kimi ni utau yo
wasurenai you ni
tatoe tooku hanarete mo
ano sora ni mukete
issei no se

maiyotte eranda michi no saki de mata maiyou no nara
miagereba mabushii sora ni ikusen no koe hibiteru yo

sugu ja muri to omou no naraba
sukoshizutsu de ii
tubasa no nai bokura kitto
tobenai to kimetsuketeru dake
koe no kagiri kimi o yobu yo
maiyowanai you ni
FUWARI kokoro maiagare
ano kaze ni nosete
issei no se

ENGLISH TRANSALTION
You're putting on that face again, Biting your lips,
and hiding your weakness.
I see behind your eyes to your sadness. The real you should be...

laughing, crying, all alone, and lonely. Why do you carry your pain?
Let me help you

If you think its impossible right now, A little bit at a time is fine.
Those of us without wings, Only think that we can't fly.
With all my might, I'll call for you so don't get lost.
I'll lift your heart and let it ride on that wind,
with our voices as one.

I can't reach you if you don't let me help you. You will feel pain even
if you run away
I will hold your hands tightly, I will prevent you from hiding your feelings

Don't grieve by yourself, the pain will fly away
Let's move on from today and onto tomorrow

It is probably impossible to change things by yourself
We may not have wings, but we can fly where ever you want
I will sing your name so that you won't forget
Even if are away for away from each other, we will face the same sky and
shout in one voice

If you pick another path and get lost again
We will look at the radiant sky, a thousand voice will be heard

If you think you can't do it right now, it's fine to do it a little bit
at a time
Those without wings like us only think that we can't fly
I will call for you with all my might so that you won't get lost
I will lift your heart and let it ride the wind, with our voices as one

nth to do so post some song =x next time post some other XD

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2010-08-20T22:33:00.004+08:00

Meow~ haiz getting more blur n blur @.@ nvm here is some pics from my Bunka Amazing Race tired alread x.x

hahahhahhaha!! =x jelly hand =x

kimono~ XD

nth much. overall the race is fun but tiring xD

Boring~

2010-08-19T22:18:00.001+08:00

Haiz.. dun really know wad to type.. XD sian arrrrr fail my Jap E2 by 1 mark T-T sat having retest... hope i can pass >.< boring day~ hope something fun can happen soon...

Wheeee~

2010-08-18T22:18:00.002+08:00

Hi there! Long time no blog. Really is veri veri long lol. Got sider web le XD aiya super lazy to blog =x Changed blog skin again. Nth better to do =P Got so much thing to blog. But... dunno start from where... @.@ wait i got time n mood then i update bah XD keke.

Confuse....

2010-04-09T22:23:00.003+08:00

Lately feels tat life is so meaningless... But dun worry, will not do anything to stupid or do something to hurt myself... coz doing all tat also seems meaningless... since no one will care. juz realise my previous post is juz pretty words... i cant seems to use them on myself... wadever i do oso wann complain or pour cold water on me... buy/read/collect manga is my only hobby, also dun allow me to collect. dun seems to understand y. but i know i have spent alot on it, but is now like i use it to buy something bad..... maybe... maybe... i should use it to buy cigarette or maybe event drugs... use more can die earlier oso zzz... don't know wad i want... moody swing very badly. can almost every night cry... dun ask me y... coz not even myself knows the ans... i really dunno wad i want anymore... do things for the sake of doing, work for the sake of working being alive for the sake of staying alive... really meaningless... i am tired... really tired... can't move on anymore... i dun wann to move on... i want things to stay as it is... but can't... everything, everyone is moving forward but i dun seems to be moving... i am stuck... i've forgotten wad is confident, wad is trust , or maybe i've forgotten wad is love... i feel so frustrated... i want to vent out my anger but dunno how... so i keep everything in... but i dunno how long can i keep this.. i am not a talking person... but i know wads happening around me... i know and can feel that my fren are down... bt i dunno how to cheer them up... and i know tat if they r down, i cant be down too...so... i've decided to be the funny one then... talk something stupid or say something funny to let them juz to smile... but then this make me neglect my feelingss... coz all i ever thing is how to make them smile, how to make them happy... by normal i am ok... but... if something happen not the way i want i will feel very emo... i feel useless, i cant help my fren slove their problem, i can even slove my own problem, which is i dun even know wad it is... useless me... scared this scared that, dun dare this dun dare tat... when? when? when? when will i dare to take the 1st step out... i dunno... stupid me zzz so useless...

2010-03-29T22:50:00.006+08:00

Whehehehe this is my FAV show fow now~ xP

Ghost Whisperer

simply love this show, nv fails to make me drop my tear everytime =x chn5 is showing this soon every sat 10.30pm. eventhough i watch this online till ep16 le i stil like to chase it on tv xD

got 2 other jap drama that i've juz finish watching both is my fav oso xD

Hidarime Tantei EYE

my fav x333

This is Bloody Monday

total of 2 season =) n i like it XD

waa tml start my jap class le excited n nervous at the same time D: but i will study hard ^-^v

Random~

2010-03-25T09:27:00.013+08:00

dunno why last night alot of things come into my mind. really is think alot. i realise that there is no such thing as forever, and i dun ask for forever or believe in forever... everything will end someday, somehow. there will be no such thing as forever happy, foever sad, foever angry, foever love (maybe there is, juz that i dun believe in forever =X)... everything happen for a reason, sad things, angry things, or even happy things. when sad or angry things happen on us, we will always grumble, 'y is it always me?' 'y things always goes against wad i want?' and will be angry at any 1 who say something at us, will feel that they dun understand me at all, and feel that life is a pain, well maybe at some points of time it really is super pain, pain till u think that life is not fair... but of course life is not fair, there is nv a fair life... we go through each n every pain to grow. everytime after the pain and i look back, i realise its all the " pain " that makes us who we are now. we like it or not, it's "US" we cant change it... thats y i will cherish every little small things happening around me. maybe i will grumble or emo when things doesn't go right for me, but its all a part of my life, so after my pain n sadness i will stand up again & continue my life... (thinks its time to end to rubbish)

hehe lately was thinking wad kind of phone i should change, i've decide wad kind i want.. but i cant choose the colour >.<

white pink( can't get a better pic)

black red

help me choose XD

Finally 1st post in 2010 xD

2010-03-15T12:37:00.004+08:00

Yup i finally post my 1st post in 2010 keke. Got alot of thing to say, but dunno where to start or how to start... So i shall juz start with wad i have done lately. Here goes... I juz ended my 1 week attachment at bakery, when starting was like hell, because i dunno where to get the ingredient or wad to do, and i was like super nervous >.< and i hurt my finger 1st day working there ._. stupid me =x

Oya! I've register for Jap class starting 30th march XD like finally ^-^ hope i will do well ><

And ya, i've changed my blog skin XD dunno wad to change so anyhow change. werid skin huh. =x Maybe next time i can introduce the person on my blogskin keke xD

Oh my i am getting so random =.= hehe. Today work start at 4pm~ think i am getting use to this kind of working style. So i've oso decided to stay part time there. ^-^

Ok i think i am getting more n more random. =x so i shall end here. Wait till i have the time to post some vids and pics xD

2009-12-30T14:00:00.002+08:00

Verrrrrryyyyy loooonnngggg never blog le, lol. =x Don't really know what to type haha XD but still i guess it's because i've really block all my feelings... ;) it's the right choice cause like this i don't have those confusing feeling... and i can do everything normal and do what i like... but still i have the feeling of missing some one... this is the only feeling i don't want to let go... miss all of them sooooo much x3

work was fine at new place, getting more and more used to it... but still don't really know if this is what i want... but i've decided not to think so much... juz finish this attachment than i shall think what i really want...

Finally Sunday Off!

2009-11-22T22:39:00.004+08:00

Finally got some energy to blog and is my rare SUNDAY off... Nth much really... Everyday is the same... Don't like it also have to go... Just have to accept everything, and ignore my feeling... Then everything will be fine... I don't need any feeling, feeling sux... Just let me be a puppet then i don't have to feel... Going to Somerset Marche on 25th Nov 2009 Wed. Hope things will be better there...

I will go ahead and forget, go ahead and stop feeling... So, it's fine if I get hurt, cause I don't feel pain anymore...

superrrr tired...

2009-11-04T21:45:00.004+08:00

Super duper tired.... This whole week work 8am... 7.30am must reach... Weekend worst 7am start 6.30am must reach... But the problem is... How am I suppose to reach vivo by 6.30am?!?! =.= Super sian.... And today totally not my day... Don't know what I doing at all... Cut finish fruits, throw my knife into the bin.... After transfering food from a plate to another, throw the plate into the bin.... THEN! After drying my spatula i throw it in into the bin AGAIN!Like WTH can =.= Oya 1 more thing... I write today date as 4/10/09... And Fida was nice enough to tell me my date is wrong but i still blur blur ask her she want bluff me izzit... == ps ar Fida I today super not me =x Don't know how to tahan tommorow... Yawn... Tired... Go sleep liao nites!

2009-11-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

The more I work the more I feel that I have no life... But finally make some friends there =) eventhough got 1 always bully me T_T but I know he is just playing around =P Still a kid XD But now going work is not that boring after knowing them =)

Finally finish my crepe training... Tommorow back to pastry side... Nervous sia... Like almost forget everthing le then back to old place again... Hope I can remember everything ASAP or i should say i hope i haven't forget >"< Morning again... Can't sleep till late le T_T Haiz... 5 more month!!! Must hang on!!! Cannot drop!!!Now alot of friend getting sick... Must take care ar all of you ^^ Miss you all sooooooooooooo much >.< Hope can see them soon...

2009-10-28T20:32:00.003+08:00

Whee~ long time no blog XD cause working night shift... Still not use to it yet x.x But closing can sleep till late then wake xP Nothing much, only keep forget this and that @_@ really want to kill my stupid mind >.< so blur T.T I want fast forward my time la T__T Today off =P when to watch with sis, not a bad movie, intresting =x I want more rest day >"< Like haven rest till much then in a blink of eye off over T.T Haiz... Really miss the time when we all gather together... >"< Don't want think le... Think more even more sad.. Just hope time can fly faster...

2009-10-25T21:21:00.004+08:00

Today totally not my day haiz... Early morning late for work... Reach work place this wrong that wrong... I feel like I am such a failer... One attachment also can't do a good one... Everything I do, or around me now seems like a bad dream... Worst thing is I can't wake up from this dream... I am tired... Really tired... I know this is what I must go through... But still... Haiz... I don't know... How I wish I had a Doraemon with me then I can ask it to bring out a machine that can fast foward the time =.=

But finally I get to do closing tommorow... BUT also means I SOLO 1 person at crepe counter!!! zzz CONFIRM DIE AR! =.= Hope this stupid brain of mine can work faster z_z always work so slow...

2009-10-23T22:19:00.008+08:00

Haiz...I am starting to feel sick and tired of waking up early to go work... Still as stress as ever... Really feels like giving up.... Feels like my hand is at the edge of a cliff... Anytime can falls into deep abyss... It also feels like there is a string in my heart... Everytime, everday, getting tighter and tighter... Anytime will go SNAP.... I really don't know what to do... How long can I hang on like this? Very lost... I really don't know... I am scare... Very scare... I want to runaway... But don't have the courage to runaway... I am so useless... Living for 20 years, and I can't seems to find a reason for me to be here... And I feel so extra all around me... Like I am not suppose to be here... *extra* All i see in my future is darkness... NO lights at all...

Hope my pay come next week >.< 5 months 8days more...
missing them...

>.<

2009-10-22T22:46:00.004+08:00

Whew so long no blog =x too lazy and tired XD But since tommorow is off day so I can sleep late wahahah! This whole week is do sweet crepe but I am still not very good at making it. Eat at Marche today, glad that i am a staff there... Actual price is $19+ but since I am a staff got 50% discount wahahah. The food ther not bad is nice next time got chance you all can go try =D

Still very tired... 5 more months... How to survive?

Scary scary day ==

2009-10-17T22:03:00.005+08:00

This morning super scary... Before my work went to the washroom... Was taking my time inside coz still early =x Starting work at 8am but I 7.15 reach there le xP so ya was inside there... Suddenly I heard someone went into the cabin next to me... Got close door sound and the pee-ing sound =x oya and some sobbing sound... BUT BUT when I go out and walk pass it there is NO PEOPLE INSIDE THE TOILE!?!?! @_@ Faint... Still thought that maybe is I am too tired or not fully awake yet that i heard those sound... When I tell my cheif then they tell me that toile is "not clean" @_@ Haiz... Hope is I think too much >.< Same as any other days... Tired.. expecially weekend... It's really hard to serve customer and do production at the same time... Everytime I do production half way I have to serve customer then I forget where I stopped my production... Then kena complain too slow.. If not is complain my eye sight not good, custome infront of me I also can't see =.= Please la I only got 1 piar of eye 1 pair of hands and 1 BODY only... I can serve and do production at the same with no proper training and work only not yet 2 week, is already very good le... And I am still not very farmilar with the things they put... And they sure like to backstab people... Go where also can hear they talking behind people back... Haiz... I want faster move to new shop >.< Everyday go Vivo is tired... Yawn, time to sleep tommorow 8am work.. But must reach before that to do opening... Think is not long before this body crush... Nites!

Veryyyy tired >_<

2009-10-16T21:03:00.002+08:00

Soooooo tired... Don't have enough sleep... But good thing is can slim down :P lose 4kg in this 1 week 5 days xD Maybe after this attachment I can get my ideal weight xP (hope i can =x) Ywannn... Can't stop ywaning LOL! Today after lunch nearly blackout... Think is not enough sleep.... Should sleep early today =)

Hope this 6 month will pass away faster....

Sad...

2009-10-15T20:10:00.002+08:00

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH *$@^*$@#€%$#^@# WHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYY AM I SO SLLOOOWWWWWWW AHHHHHHHHH!!!! WHY I SOOO STUPIDDDDDD!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH @^*$@#€%$# Haiz... want to do things fast... End up do alot of wrong things.... Why I so stupid... The more I tell myself everything will be fine, the more is not fine... As the more I tell myself every will be fine, when thing goes wrong, the whole stress crushed... I don't know if I can take that much not.... How long can I keep telling myself everything will be fine...? If I never think of it is fine... But when think of it I really don't know what to do... So lost... Very lost... Feel so useless...

stupid mi... useless mi... idiot me... lousy me....

Whatever....

2009-10-14T22:09:00.011+08:00

Today working was final.. Finally get use to it le ^^... Nothing much today, only thing is that our mixer spoil, used hand to whisk alot of thing, hand cramp >_< , but still it's fun =P. Finally get a line for my lappy ^^ lucky got 50% off if not actual is $118 per month now is $59 per month ... But dad nag and nag say what 2 line so exe, plus desktop and my line $100++ alot, then i just simply say if he think is ex then my $59 i pay myself lor, then he angry le, say what I should not say like that.. What i should not say? I just say if u don't want help mi pay i pay myself only mah. Got wrong meh? Whatever.... Me and my stupid mouth, always says wrong thing. Next time I shall not say anything make me mute please so that I will not say any more wrong things.. MUTE ME!!!

5months 16days more....

Speechless...

2009-10-12T21:54:00.003+08:00

Haiz... After everything... I've decided not to fall in love for the rest of my life == so ma fan... To my dearest Kuan Kuan I know ask you don't think too much is impossible... And I can't do anything much for you, only can be by your side hear you say and say, sorry that I am not good at comforting you... Seeing you cry also make me sad, don't know how to say this infront of you, so typing it here hope you will see... So.. There's nothing much I can do for you, but I really hope that you can stop thinking of that guy as soon as you can... Don't waste so much brain cells on him, think more of me =)) hehe no matters what happen I will be by your side =) So take care, give yourself a time limit to be sad, after that, no more of thinking of him. 1 last sentence for you "Don't cry for the guy you love.... Because the guy worth your love will not make you cry..." Hope you will get over him soon =)

.....?

2009-10-11T22:02:00.003+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Phew if I can really shout out that will be good =x but even if I got the chance to shout that loud I also don't dare =x but i really want to shout AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! But now better le after working at Marche for 6 day finally starting to get use to it le... Tuesday off! wahahahah praying for Tue to faster come~ keke now I learn how to kan kai dian le xP don't think too much, think soooooo much also won't change anything, might as well don't think so much still can save some brain cells :D Sooooo i have decided not to think so much just go with the flow =)

To all my PR fren Good Luck for tommorow IA :D

@__@

2009-10-10T22:09:00.003+08:00

Finally got the feeling of getting use to this attachment... But... Took me long enough... work 6 days got 3 days I cry == Haiz... Must hang on!!! Cannot give up!!! How I wish I can believe in this -.-... And weird thing is I go there is to learn how to make new products and things... We should finish everything fast... But my cheif is actually telling that production is not important... Customer is more important... Then most of the time do product half way customer come I have to stop what I am doing and serve the customer... And most of the time after serving the customer I forget where I do till... Haiz my brain memory to small liao also... Time to change le... Hope the following days i don't have to cry during my break time... Time to sleep! Tommorow need to reach work place by 7.30am T.T

5 months 21days more...

Tired...

2009-10-09T22:02:00.003+08:00

Very very tired... Is been 4 days since my attachment start.... But still not use to it... Haiz, hopping to have the strength to pull off this 6 months... not body tired but mentally tired... Lost... Very lost... Also don't know why I lost... @!@#$#!@% forget it don't know what to say... Simply lost.. Starting to think if this is what i really want.. Haiz.. forget it, finish this 6 months le then see how...

Lost...

2009-10-08T21:35:00.005+08:00

Today don't know what happen.... During break time I actually break down == lucky inside locker there no people... Really don't know why... Looking at the locker, and was thinking should I just take my bag and run away... 45mins of break and I spent about 25 mins crying =_= 15 mins to make myself settle down... Lucky last 5 mins I was able to calm myself down... Really don't know what happen. Hope i really have the strength to continue this attachment...

Yay finally Inyasha anime is continuing~ It's called 'InuYasha: Kanketsu-hen' will surely watch it xD

Haiz...

2009-10-08T20:47:00.006+08:00

Yesterday meet up with Sherline,Kat,Elynn and Kelvin at Vivo after work. Slack awhile then went to Kopitiam to have dinner. After dinner meet up with Teck Seng and Bing Hui. Slack outside Vivo while waiting for Vivi and Ber. After they come we.... PLAY! XD

After that we give Elynn a surprise by poping out a cake~

Awww sure will miss them alot >.<>

Tired >.<

2009-10-06T20:24:00.004+08:00

Today off day ^^ hehe. Nothing much, meet up with Sherline and accompany her to Hilton to return her F1 card and name tag. Pro so long le then return :x Must change ur memory card le la too full liao XD After that meet up with Kat and this time we accompany her to go Regent Hotel to test her uniform. After that we go slack, walk and walk to pass time~ Around 4+ leave Sherline and Kat and went home... Super tired, don't know why keep yawning the how day till Sherline cannot tahan already xP

Tommorow got work again... Haiz.... still feel like running away... Don't know how to pass the rest of my attachment day... Still feeling scare and lost... AHHHHHHHHHH @%$##&@#(&#@ Think I've got no choice but to hang on to it... Hope i will have the strength to hang on that is...

5 months 23 days more to go....

Tired but Fun

2009-10-05T22:11:00.003+08:00

today 1st day of attachment... Not as bad as I think of... But still... very blur... & 1 funny thing.. just started work today and tommorow is my off day! Like so funny 1st day of work nia so fast tommorow off le LOL! But still stress.. Cause got alot of things need to remember... But wil ltry my best to remember all of it... Oya by any chance if you all went to Vivocity can come visit mi at Marche Restaurant. But don't have discount =x Will continue to try my best to tahan this 6 month >.< After work meet Sherline since she is at Vivocity with Mo so i go find her... Shop awhile and chat a little then train home~ ^^

Actually thinking of running away this morning when I was about to reach my working place... But I didn't, maybe because of I realised that I have to stop running away from things... I need to face it... Or should i say that i don't have the courage to run away -_- I don't know... But will try my very very very best not to run away...

Nervous & Scare ><

2009-10-04T19:02:00.002+08:00

Nothing much for today, went for a wedding lunch at 12.00pm, after wedding lunch went to Mount Faber walk walk. Went home after that. Haiz tommorow starting my attachment le T.T scare & nervous... Ahhhhhhh @#$%&*$@%*%# don't know how to describe my feeling now... Really scare that i will screw things up >"< hope everything will be fine...

Fun Day ^^

2009-10-03T20:22:00.002+08:00

today have a fun day even though the meeting is like last min change here n there. meet kuan n pei at amk POSB there then we take bus to bugis. search for place to sing K there but can't find so end up eat lunch at nearby Buger King, then train down to cityhall went to marina square to sing K instead. so we sing n sing from 2.16pm till 5.50pm,actually should be can sing till 6.06pm the recipet there put in time is 2.16pm, out time is 6.06pm. but dunno y at 5.45 got a person come in tell us the song we singing now is our last song... so ya.. finish that song we go le.. thought got alot of people thats y ask us to go... but on the way out still can see alot of empty room... hmm wonder y.. nvm, over liao XD nth much. but enjoy my day with them =) pictures with pei.. will try to get from her soon so i can up load it :D

hmmm..

2009-10-02T10:42:00.001+08:00

still finding way to put up blogskin n everything... so chim.. >.<

tml going to sing K with kuan and pei~ veri long nv see them le miss them XD nth much dunno wad to blog so juz anyhow bomb something in 1st ^^

WOW

2009-10-01T22:53:00.001+08:00

this is something new for me so.... still a bit blur... hope i will get use to it soon xD